fallen angel

when an angel falls, do their wings break?
Does their ability to save others subside?
Do they walk on earth because they can't fly back to heaven?
Do they wait for someone to save them or lose all hope of return?
Do they stand strong or try to hide?

My fallen angel didn't break her wings but her spirit.
She didn't lose her ability to save others, just herself.
She walked on earth because she didn't know she could fly back to heaven.
She waited for someone to save her, but in the end they only betrayed her.
She never looked at the future, she was to caught up in the past.
Built up walls to hide behind, pushed everyone away, anchored herself to the floor so she could never be thrown away.

My fallen angel is my best friend.
I've tried to be there for her as much as she is there for me,
it's a shame she doesn't know what an impact she's made in my life.
I guess it's just my time and my turn to be pushed and thrown away.
i want you to know i will miss you more than you will ever know and i wish the best to my fallen angel.
You are and always will be my best friend.
Thank you for sticking around, even if it wasnt till the end.

battling against myself.

i left home five days after i graduated high school. i wish i would have known the things i know now. i wish i would have said goodbye before, because now it's too late. i wish i wouldnt have tried so hard to fit into everyones expectations of who i am and who i should be. i wish i didnt care so much about what everyone else thinks about me. i wish i could have just been myself like before i met you. i wish i could have taken down my walls and been comfortable with myself. i wish i knew where i was going and what i was doing with my life. i wish that just for once i could be myself when i am with you. i wish i could trust without question or guilt. i wish i had the courage to tell you how i felt. i wish i could go back in time. i wish i could fix things. i wish i didnt feel so empty and alone. I wish, most of all, that i was happy and satisfied enough that i didnt have to wish for any of this at all.

I AM - Nichole Nordeman

wow. i haven't been on here in forever! haha well there's lots of stuff i have to say but i have to leave for school...so ya i just really wanted to say that im fine, don't worry about me, and i hope everything works out. im strong but im sick of being strong so from now on im just going to be myself and where ever that gets me i'll be ok. im not going to be broken ever again it only hurts worse each time so from now on i wont have any more expectations, that way i'll never be disappointed in myself or anyone else. g2g

Runaway

Breathing heavily,

I think to myself

I should have listened.

My legs move faster than light,

but I'm not going anywhere.

A strange car comes toward me,

So I try to moving and running faster,

but I go no where.

A hand appears first,

then an arm,

and his face is dark and unknowing

as he drives straight towards me.

I know my fate,

falling into blackness

from a sleep I can not awake.

Finger streaks of pink blush scatter through the sky.

Hues of pinks, purples, blues, and yellows

battle like soldiers fighting for thier lives.

The one who wins is the temporary king of all

as the yellow loses to the pink,

and the pink clashes with the army of indigo

resulting in a light shade of purple.

The battle field is hidden by violent colors of the dark clouds,

as thier screams are disuised by the rumbling thunder.

Brave knights and thier noble steeds

fall to the earth like raindrops

being washed away or buried by the earth's surface.

RED

The color of all emotion
flows through every livingbeing,
it proves; hurt,
anger,
hate,
passion,
misunderstandings,
beginning and ends,
fear,
happiness,
love,
and willpower.
It's the energy that runs through my body,
making me ache for more.